I don't even know where to begin or how it all started. But I've noticed that my depression has gotten worse than ever. And I honestly thought that those who are following the Lord Jesus Christ Almighty didn't suffer from depression. And if they did the Lord would heal them from it. You all know what I endured from my childhood & I had PTSD & depression bcuz of it. But since giving my life to the Lord Jesus Christ Almighty I haven't had any relapses until now. And idk how else to put it other than I'm so tired. Physically, Emotionally, Spiritually tired. Especially with everything that's going on in the world & with our brothers & sisters going through such difficult times. I honestly felt like giving up & walking away from the Lord Jesus Christ Almighty. And I've never felt like that would ever be something that I actually considered. But I've gotta tell y'all that I was. And I'm ashamed to say that but I'm not gonna lie to you. The bible says that when you're going through hard times you should be honest & tell your family about what you're going through. So this is me telling you my family about what I'm going through. And even though I'm going through this I am praying for you all & your families. I love you guys so much & I'm so grateful to the Lord for putting y'all in my life.